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thanks but it still feels a little odd accepting an apology from somebody who i just met and technically had nothing to do with my life even if you do feel guilty splinterways or whatever it is just a messed up situation and i guess i had to vent and there was never anyone i wanted to say all that to and the only thing that was gonna drag it out of me i guess was like a teen stand-in phantom of my dead bro just some perfectly innocent dude havin to take the brunt of this shit I'm not particularly innocent though. I've messed a lot of things up. With my friends. Honestly, that's why I wasn't that bent on sticking around, when I showed up. And pretty much jumped at the offer of flying here to get ready for some yet to be explained battle. Battles are easy. Just you, a sword, some bad guys... it's a lot simpler than having to answer for things you did. For the most part, I feel pretty bad about the role I played in my friends' lives. Especially Jake. what happened there I don't even know. An unmitigated disaster for which I'm entirely to blame. It's not any one thing. I think I was just a completely toxic element in his life from day one. I don't know what he's doing now. I wouldn't be surprised if he was trying to avoid me as much as possible. I'm sure that's for the best. I think I need to stay out of his business for a good while, so I don't risk poisoning another innocent kid's life. Like I did with you, apparently. yeah i mean maybe its a little different cause relations between peers is a whole other thing its tricky shit and youre both figuring stuff out on a relatively equal footing and youre both at the same point in your lives its not like when one person is older and supposed to be a lot more... never mind this is a fucked up thing to think about but the bottom line is yeah laying low while you sort out your stuff cant hurt Right. The thing with that, with my adult self's... Ways. The sad thing is, I can really see it. How someone like me can go unchecked in life, and turn out to become a much worse person than I already am. I guess I'm just relieved I still have some time to make sure that doesn't happen. you dont actually seem like a bad person to me though No? nah Why not? We did just meet, after all. because i dunno if truly bad people wrestle so much with whether theyre good or bad i think if i ever sensed my bro like struggled at all with what he was doing or who he was or showed any sort of doubt that might have changed everything but there was never a crack in it or the slightest hint of introspection behind the aggressive cooldude facade if there was i sure never noticed i mean personally i think about it all the time now what it actually means to be good or bad or if not something that starkly moral at least just trying to examine the difference between being decent and being a douche maybe its because of him i worry about that now but for me i think that internal struggle is kind of mild for him... or you i mean it sounds like some pretty dark shit like grappling with... becoming evil vs simply trying not to Yeah. That's not too far off. but the point is even just talkin to you a little bit its obvious youve been fighting with that which means that you care enough to put in some effort i think that counts for something
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