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i dont want to be here, i have to go back but i dont know how can you help me? you want me to help you... die again? yes, i think thats what i would like i cant take this, i wasnt ready to come back not like this wow... ok, i know this is my fault but that is a really hard thing to ask me to do! even if it was possible the way you are now i dont think i could go through with it :( boo hoo hoo hoo hoo ok ok shhhhh... jade listen i never did tell you why i brought you back and it may be that if you attempt what i wanted you to do in the first place god i cant believe im saying this... but you might end up getting what you want anyway because it was always going to be risky what is it? well, you remember the guy who destroyed prospit? oh god D: ohh god noooooo... shh!!! anyway, he is the reason i brought you here he has the same powers you have, making him unbeatable to us... but maybe not you! so you could go find him and you want me to fight him??? um are you crazy? do i look like i am ready to fight anybody??????? i just thought as long as youre here i cant fight anybody! jade i am scared and confused and sad and... i wouldnt even know how to begin fighting that horrible guy i would be too afraid of him to even go find him but i thought you wanted to die? you wouldnt go even if he could... no i dont want him to kill me!!! you just dont understand aaaaa boo hoo hoo jeez... youre right, i really dont BOO HOO HOO HOO i said SHH! wow jade... i dont mean to be insensitive but there is a lot at stake here! woof i... pfhehe, dont change the subject! i mean, dont you remember what this was all about? what you were working for... what WE were working for all those years before you died? remember what we saw in the clouds, or what the queen told us? uh... how could you not remember john survived? we both saw him in a cloud! he was in his dream suit and awake, reading our letter! didnt you think about that? ummmm, so? what does it matter? ... it was all a lie jade. what we saw in the clouds and all that. none of it meant anything what!!!!! how can you SAY that? it was a nice life, but everything we did lead to nothing john and i both died, and i eventually accepted that and moved on JOHN DIDNT DIE!!! omg... this is so frustrating, i just told you he didnt i knew i was kind of ditzy and forgetful in my dreams, but boooo ho- SHHHHH! okaaaaaay, jeez! i just dont know what to think i guess you are part of me, and you are who i was when i slept but it makes me sad to think i would act like this act like what? i would like to think that even if i was sad and scared, if i was put in a position where everyone depended on me, i could put all those feelings aside and do whats right! but i dont know whats right yes you do! even though you dont want to be, youre here now, and there are still people who need you there is still something worth fighting for!
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